Same Shit, Different Person

"It feels like somethings missing but I just don't know.

It's like I'm not the same man that I was no more.

And all these crazy places, that I usually go,

Are jus not as excitin as they was before."

Ok. So. I'm fully aware that I've been Lyfe Jennings'ing ya'll to death, but the man speaks truth... hence the reason he has been in the last 3 post I've written. Anywho, I've had this unshakeable feeling lately. It's bad that I'm a writer and I don't know how to put the feeling into words, BUT that's what it is. So I was trying to cheat and hear the new Lyfe CD that I ranted about in the previous blog, but Imeem wasn't having it.

I settled for reading the song lyrics. The lines quoted above are from his newest single (that I skimmed through but never really listened to: music heads know the difference). Whatever the case, as Lauryn would say- he was 'singing my life with his words.' Those lines sum up my feelings completely. Things are definitely different, and I haven't been able to pin point whether or not the differences of for the worse or for the best.

The only thing I'm sure of is that I am a different person in the midst of these changes. As a result, I can't act spontaneously. Though things no longer hold the value that they once did, the weight of my actions has not changed. I need clarity. I also need assurance. What I really need to do is pray. Speaking of which... church is another issue within itself. The next post will be about just that.

Life Changes on a Daily Basis,
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