Saturday, March 15, 2008

Friend or Foe? State ya Biz.

friend (noun)
1. a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
2. a person who gives assistance; patron; supporter
1. a relationship less intimate than friendship
2. personal knowledge or information about someone or something
foe (noun)
1. a person who feels enmity, hatred, or malice toward another; enemy
2. a person who is opposed in feeling, principle, etc., to something
3. a thing that is harmful to or destructive of something

Upon coming home, my dad told me that my relationship with my god father could no longer be existent. There are more details then I care to reveal, but long story short- ten years ago, my god father intended to harm my dad- in the worse way possible. Since then, he's been walking around him as a best friend would: hanging with our family, borrowing things, asking for help, showing concern for our well being, etc. Jigga always says it best:

"Niggas see you in the street, pretend to be friendly,
but I know any type of success breeds envy.
I know in the back of your mind your conjuring ways to hit me,
leave my friends in a circle pouring out Henny."

With that being said, it was a huge wake up call for me. I know that (even though) I have trust issues, I can also be too trusting. It's hard determining what a persons' status should be in your life. In allowing a person to come close to you, you give them power to affect your emotions. Isn't life cruel? Seriously though. It's not like people have "good intentions", "genuine person", or "I mean you harm" tattooed on their forehead upon meeting you. As a result, you have to be so guarding of those you let in.

I don't want to have to reduce people's status with me just to keep myself protected. Everyone can't be a mere acquaintance. People come into your life for reasons and for seasons- guess I just need to start sorting into the proper categories.

It be Like That Sometimes,

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